day one

Does life have to be mundane? How and where do I get inspiration? Do I lack creativity? Am I not thinking outside the box? I need an artistic outlet!

My day consists of working 8:30ish to 5pm (which actually means 7:15am to 5:30 because of drive time), going to the gym (which means I don’t get home until 7pm), walking the dog with my hubby, showering, making dinner, having a glass of wine, watching tv, maybe reading a bit or surfing the net (blogs, FB, shopping, etc). Then going to bed and getting up the next day and doing it all over again, by the way this is Monday through Friday. On the weekends we usually have stuff to do, dog obedience classes for our puppy, family stuff, house cleaning, etc…when do I make time for my art? Am I too lazy to? Am I not passionate enough to make time for it? Am I really just making excuses????? So I guess for today, I will make an effort to make time in the now…

Seeking inspiration--- Tonight (Pizza & movie with the girls) Nat, Meg, & I are going to Pizza n Such for dinner and then we’re catching the 7 o’clock showing of Eat, Pray, Love, so that may just push me over the top or inspire me to just go and seek pleasure in life! To be continued…

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. To keep our faces toward change and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate is strength undefeatable." --- Helen Keller

Have a great weekend!

one day at a time

I’ve come to realize that I am not happy where I am as far as a career, I’ve always felt like I was made for more than just a 8-5 office job, but I’ve gotten comfortable where I am at. Now that my 9 year anniversary is only 2 months away, that feeling of not being satisfied is pulling at me hard and weighing me down. I’ve gone to culinary school, I’ve been to college and still have yet to find what fulfills my soul. I love to write but am not anywhere near my full potential, I love to cook, but I'm afraid not for a living, I love painting, but not a gifted painter, and so on... Many people have these fabulous creative ideas and they make a living with doing what they love, I admire and want that, yet I cannot seem to find my nitch. So now, I find myself here again, what should I do? So I have decided that I give myself until the end of the year to make this change. I will, one day at a time move forward in the right direction, to a new life, to a new me, to a happy place. Any ideas or suggestions?

today, everyday

I woke up this morning, groggy and tired as usual, after snoozing my alarm a few times (actually I think I might have turned it off and just used my husband’s alarm instead), made myself get out of bed, pet my puppy bear who was sleeping at my feet, like usual, and got into the shower, still exhausted after 8 hours of sleep…hmmm. What happened? Got myself ready, my usual routine, showered, brushed my teeth, washed my face, brushed my hair, blow dried my bangs, lotioned up, face & body, then half did my make up, not feeling it today. Got dressed, ran into the kitchen, grabbed a cup of coffee, which my husband so graciously makes every morning (thanks babe), grabbed lunch, got my gym bag( which is really a tote), my purse, kissed my husband goodbye, petted my puppy again, and off I went to work. A 45 minute drive, 0 to 80 in no time, as usual my thoughts start, this is my time, heading east on the 210, 45 minutes on my way to work, turn on the radio, sing a bit, turn off the radio, because silence seems more peaceful, of course being who I am, I have conversations and arguments with myself, sometimes I talk to God (not as often as I should), then I settle on a day dream, ahhh, my time…

“packing up, flying in, 1 bedroom apartment, my husband, fabulous job, the city, walking along the streets with puppy bear, camera in hand, fall, wind, dinner, décor, rooftop patio, glass of red wine, cozy bed, book shelves, my little family, a new life…”

I exit on Milliken, as usual, cross the railroad tracks, turn into the driveway, pull into a parking space, put my car on park, grab my purse, my tote, my coffee, walk through the dealership, smile and say good morning, as usual, walk up to my office, sit at my desk, and take my gone home off my phone, as usual…

Lucky for me, tomorrow at 5pm, I will be officially on vacation for a week...ahhhh, my time;)